can you believe a huge, awfully mean, tree branch fell on our car? i know these kinds of things happen all the time, but sometimes they come at a time when you have little to no tolerance for them. this is such a time.
so Lord, you know that our honda was smashed by a tree. you know that we don’t have as much money as we would like. you know that we wanted ben to work this summer to save money washing residential windows, but he only has one house. you know that i was quick on the draw and chose to put ac in ben’s car. (why do i spend money i don’t have?) sigh. you know that we expected you to be extravagant to us anyway. like little kids. expecting the very best no matter what we did. are we so presumptuous?
our spirits are low now. we finally heard back from usaa and they want to give us half of what we believe our car is worth. ben’s is terribly upset. we are just very disappointed. of course, emri hasn’t skipped a beat. i can still hear her singing in the other room.
tonight we have offered to watch our neighbor’s kids for a couple hours while they go out to dinner. it’s our movement into community.
but we are a little tired. and disheveled. we need you to rescue us.
it’s fun to just believe like little children that you are going to be extravagant in a big way. that you would use this branch falling on our car as a way to richly bless us.
but maybe our response to you isn’t over as children. maybe that in the midst of hearing from usaa, truly having faith like a child is to respond in the way that emri is responding right now. she’s not lost in the details. she’s really anticipating going over to play with our neighbor’s kids. the big stuff isn’t her burden. ben and i will be responsible for our part. but the stuff we can’t control isn’t our burden. Lord, we relinquish the big stuff to you. let us still respond like little children. let us STILL believe. call into our being, faith, hope, assurance, encouragement, love, and extravagant giving. we love you, Lord. we will hope in you from this time and forever more.
o LORD, my heart is not proud, nor my eyes haughty ; nor do i involve myself in great matters, or in things too difficult for me. surely i have composed and quieted my soul ; like a weaned child rests against his mother, my soul is like a weaned child within me. o israel, hope in the LORD from this time forth and forever.
…i must circle back to this post because our insurance re-negotiated with us on how much we were going to get for our totaled car. turns out, we made $500.00 on our car. and upgraded to a black acura that is definitely worth more than our poor little honda that had been totaled. things changed drastically not long after this post. and how terrible would it have been for me to not celebrate this provision? truly, we got more than we deserved and our incredibly thankful!