its wednesday morning and my eyes are puffy and red.
ben and i found out yesterday that we have to put our 1o month old puppy to sleep… probably today.
he has an oral tumor that is taking over a lot of his face and eye.
and my heart is broken because we just love that dog.
the past 8 months have been kind of hard for us and decker has just been such a sweet little blessing to us.
a perfect, little gift.
one massive ball of white fluff jumping around.
making me smile sometimes when i dont’ want to.
he’s such a cool dog. i mean freaking cool.
and i don’t think we are ready to let him go.
we took decker on a picnic to swope park yesterday. he got his own chik fil a meal. 😉
and we let him loose and watched him play.
ben was quiet and my eyes were continually red and puffy.
we told emri.
she crawled onto ben’s lap and cried.
but it made me laugh when a few seconds later asked ben,
“but, dad…do you think you can climb that?”
(while pointing to a tower a few feet away)
i’m going to miss how happy decker is when we come home.
i’m going to miss him a whole lot when we go running.
i’m going to miss ben getting him so riled up in the house.
i’m going to miss waking up at 3:45 in the morning going to the kitchen
and seeing decker stumble in with his bed head and squinty eyes staring at me in the kitchen doorway
wondering what i’m doing at such an ungodly hour, and then walking back to our room to go back asleep again.
i’m going to miss him gaily running laps around our backyard just because he’s happy.
today is going to be a hard day for the myers.
there will be tears.